The Death of the Heart

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I think I need therapy after reading this novel. I’m all kind of mentally, psychologically, and emotionally confused. There were moments of greatness, but then on the whole, I wondered whether it was worth it. Maybe it was, who knows; the fact that it’s eliciting this kind of reaction from me perhaps shows that it is one of a kind.  Maybe I needed to read this now; to show, perhaps, that I’m not the only person in the world that overthinks.

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I’m so happy that we got to spend some time driving around New Delhi before our flight back home.  It was such a busy time that I didn’t think we will still be able to see something of the city.  Thanks to our guide who took us to Connaught Place, and this bookstore which according to him is the oldest one in New Delhi.

I grabbed the opportunity of buying these books that have been forever on my list but never got.  Honestly, I’m proud of myself. Haha! Got books by Indians from India.  I’m sure not many could say the same.  As to reading these anytime soon, that remains to be a dream.

New Delhi, or India for that matter, is probably not the place I would choose to go to for leisure if it were up to me.  My experience there was not exactly the best.  The cuisine wasn’t a favourite, safety was an issue, and the general air not exactly for the faint at heart.  But then leisure was not the purpose.  I did what I went to do.  All in all it was a huge blessing.  I did experience India, the little I saw of its wonders was enough given the time and the pace of our task there.  That’s why I hold on to this moment I went to Connaught Place and saw two bookstores and got some books because this was one of the highlights of my trip.

I dunno if I will ever choose to go back on my own volition. Maybe. Given the money, time and a good country-side spot, maybe.  The air, without the pollution, is cool, and the people have this easy way of bouncing back from bad to good.  It wasn’t all bad, really.  If nothing else, it made me somewhat prouder of my own country.

people’s center and library

People Center and Library is a public library located in Tacloban City.  It encompasses the whole second floor of a two-storey building.  It’s like time stood still in this library.  It was built during the Marcos’ regime and never saw glory again.  It contains a lot of great books, covered in dust, but still in good condition.

After Typhoon Yolanda (Haiyan) hit Leyte, the building was used as an evacuation center for the victims.  Sad to say, a lot of them were used for more “practical” uses.  No judgment.  It was a time of chaos and uncertainty.  However, it has remained intact and still contains a lot of treasures which badly need love and affection.  Something can still be done.

My friend Cookee and I decided to volunteer.  We have no idea about book organisation or classification, but we do know how to dust and pile them.  We start where we can.

This is what I will be busy with this year, and, perhaps, in the years to come.

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#loveyourlibrary #peoplescenterandlibrary

New Year, New List

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This is my very ambitious to-read pile for 2016.  But I’m shooting for big things this year.  This isn’t an impossible task considering that I’ve finished 16 books this year.  I just need to take it out on Plants v. Zombies time.  I think I have more chances of accomplishing this anyway than doing the daily 15-minute planking I said I’ll do this year.

I got some big titles here: books I’ve always wanted to read and searched for years, but sadly remained in my unread pile for so long.  This is hopefully the year I try to match my buying with my reading.

1. The Metamorphosis ~ Franz Kafka
2. The Brothers Karamazov ~ Fyodor Dostoevsky
3. Far From the Madding Crown ~ Thomas Hardy
4. The Phantom of the Opera ~ Gaston Leroux
5. Begin to Exit Here ~ John Welter
6. In Cold Blood ~ Truman Capote
7. Can You Forgive Her? ~ Trollope
8. Night Train ~ Martin Amis
9. The Vagina Monologues ~ Eve Ensler
10. The Dolce Vita Diaries ~ Cathy Rogers and Jason Gibb
11. The Rare and the Beautiful ~ Cressida Connolly
12. The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao ~ Junot Diaz
13. Wilhelm Meister’s Apprenticeship ~ Goethe
14. The Tin Drum ~ Gunter Grass
15. Sister Carrie ~ Theodore Dreiser
16. Washington Square ~ Henry James
17. Catch-22 ~ Joseph Heller
18. The Professor ~ Charlotte Bronte
19. The Bhagavad Gita
20. The Jungle Books ~ Rudyard Kipling
21. On the Road ~ Jack Kerouac
22. Blink ~ Malcolm Gladwell
23. Thinking, Fast and Slow ~ Daniel Kahneman
24. Cloud Atlas ~ David Mitchell

Oh yeah, Happy New Year! Cheers.

 

 

 

the soul of money

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“Using money as a direct expression of one’s deepest sense of self is a powerful, miraculous thing.  It is a practice, however, and I’m still working on it.  I waste money.  I buy products that are part of the problem rather than part of the solution.  I get excited about money and disappointed about money and frustrated and conflicted over money issues.  But I am also on a path in a practice, that I’m sharing with you because I believe it is useful and important in our time.  I’m seeing that more and more of us are awake to our higher commitments, concerned about how we’re living, and this book is an offering to contribute to that process that is taking place all around us now.”

” I also invite you to live a larger life – to see that when we really look at what we’ve got and let go of trying to accumulate more, we have the capacity for much greater lives than just “getting” and “having”.  Everyone wants more than the good life for just themselves.  They want a good life for all, and when you realize there is enough, you get in touch with that possibility.  It becomes the natural outcome of shifting your context.  It worked that way for me, and I’ve seen it work that way for many others around the world.”

“I challenge you to imbue your money with soul – your soul – and let it stand for who you are, your love, your heart, your word, and your humanity.”

~ The Soul of Money, by Lynne Twist

I love this book.  This is one of the most important books I have read in my life.  Its message completely resounded in my soul.  I am looking for copies and buying every single one of my best girl friends one.